man i feel damn down now. 1st the haze is like killing me, making me cough non-stop, eyes tear and waking up with bloodshot eyes. 2nd is next week i have field camp and saturday is ending soon. so damn fast. 3rd is regarding yeling. dont really wanna say much but some of the things can be found on her blog.

all i know she is quite happy with her life at the moment. just that guys are probably mistaking her actions. i didnt wanna tag about it on her blog cause i might be getting the wrong idea and end up tagging something wrong. well i know yeling and me are probably at the end of the road or should i say different part of the world. i really feel it was too short and wasted. its like i am having the determination to go on but the situation doesnt let me have it.

now i dont know how to trust. she is the most decent girl i have ever met in my life. seriously the very 1st one. the one that i can communicate well and can talk things to. when everything seems so wonderful, it was the same time when it all crashes. i was totally lost and everything was shattered. in the end what everyone can say is "i am very sorry". if that word can solve problems, everyone will be very happy and there wont be people tearing.

i hope i can get this over and understand the situation i am in now. though its a torture, i will survive. no pain, no gain.

Gregory posted at 10:17 PM,
Saturday, October 07, 2006