nowadays everything seems so wrong. everything is going the opposite direction where you want it to head. i felt like a total stranger. i am lost. now the only thing on my mind is that 2 yrs of green life. everything is green. words sometimes speaks louder than actions. it just few sentences and now i dont feel the special feeling anymore. its gone. i now feel really total stranger towards ** ****. i dont know what to do. i lost the drive to spark a conversation or should i say i dont know what to say anymore. its totally different now. so damn different. i dont know how to explain this, it came naturally.

the last few hours of my last day. i cant even spend time with who i wanna be. tomorrow its even worst. i think i am going in alone. i am like some superhero by the name of isolated man. people will have their family and gfs, but me alone. lol. i should not have started all this and now i am stuck again. AGAIN. STUCK. maybe its just not the time.

Gregory posted at 10:17 AM,
Friday, September 08, 2006