ehm today nth really happen. except for what nick said last night. i know it was meant to be good but at that point he said it, i was totally lost. I did listen to what he said and think took some time to think about it. its not say i am thinking of that thing 24/7 and not that i am sad. it just needs time for me to go back to normal. talked to mac aout it cause he is someone who really knows me in and out, up and down. he has been with me 3 yrs and most probably got used to me being happy and down.

she told me she still love me and want me back, but dont push her for an answer. i am not asking anything. i am giving time. sometimes i feel whether to actually go on or not. i seriously dunno whats goin wrong. her msn nick just makes me feel so uneasy. haha. what i can say is wait and see? i am not say giving up. if there is a chance of cause i will catch hold of it. well i am just like this. i dunno why i trust people so much. whatever it is, there is slight improvement. not much but enough to make us talk normally. anyways hope your poxy get healed faster. haha. final destination 3 will finish wor.

ok enough of that topic. kinda getting long and naggy. i just wanna say i have great bunch of brothers who actually care for me. always there when i am down and share my joy. maybe i going to work at sentosa haha.......but as usual my auntie will come and talk shit. she will say all those things that seriously i dun wanna think about. "Why cant you just find a job related to what you are studying?" "That's a lame job." "I want you to join a different organisation." "Why do you have to involve yourself in those kind of things? (refering to FOW,FOC)"

thats really fucked-up. cant i just do what i want for this short period of time before i go NS? am i asking too much? i know they are for my good, but if i were to follow that, i might as well be a dog. i know i am not good in studies at least i am happy with what i do.

uhm.......dun really wanna think now. just hope everyone is safe and sound.

Gregory posted at 11:23 PM,
Monday, February 27, 2006