allright. finally its all over. my exams are done but i still dun have much mood to do anything. tried hard to study and luckily i could. i must be strong no matter wat. sometimes the way i say it is like so freaking easy but in fact when i am about to carry it out, i cant.

probably now is the period where she will think through about whether i am the 1 for her. i did all i can for her and from this point onwards the decision is all hers. haha. i have no say though. people who are reading this maybe u can do me a favour by not asking her so much qns. i myself actually pulled through the heartache part. now all i need is the ans she is gonna give me. ppl ask me how long she is gonna take i am not sure. for me as long as the ans is a nice ans no matter how long i will oso wait, but at the meantime i tell me or should i say i force myself to accept the fact we might break off. i really have no idea.

maybe if things go bad, my life will once be screwed up. all those nice sweet msges, the hugs, the kisses will all be gone. why did this kind of things happened? i actually though we could go on step by step. now its too late to say anything. things turn out bad all i can do is think how i can save it. i am gonna do something to it. i dun believe love is such torturing thing. if is it, i have nth to say.

exams over but there are still things unsettled. i hope when her chicken pox are done with. we can actually meet up and talk things out. i seriously dunno treatin u that good might cause u too leave me. i seriously have no idea and now i am here thinking why i had done that. if it wasnt for me who stress u in saying i put in everything, this day wont come and we wont have to like tok to each other like strangers. it rly hurts to see u like this. thinking about every single bit and blaming urself.

my mum and godpa likes u alot compared to my ex. my frenz all say u are way better. i myself feels it too. u are rly something special. the kind of care u gave to me, the kind of happiness u gave was totally different. the love u gave to me was emotionally and not physically. if u were to read this, i shall say i still luv ya no matter wat happens. have confidence in urself. trust urself. dun blame urself. tk care.

13 days in counting.....haha.....

Gregory posted at 5:37 PM,
Thursday, February 23, 2006